***
In another two hours, it's our forth. I don't feel anything. It isn't because I don't feel for her anymore. It's just that she isn't. All she can feel now is her head pounding really hard. Sweetheart, please get well soon. )= I can't feel the happy in Happy Forth. :D So I guess I'll spend our monthsary alone tomorrow. Perhaps with my Literature notes & The Winslow Boy. Perhaps online talking to Anita about how shitty I feel. Perhaps rest in bed all day with Tamia's Officially Missing You ringing in my head. Perhaps I'll soil my pillow with tears. I pray baby would get well soon.

I'm glad we've come this far. My longest relationship ever. And it's baby's longest serious-est one. :) She told me she haven't been in love for this long. Feelings always perish after two months. But ours was exceptional. :] I'm definitely happy to hear that.

Baby, please know that no matter what's gonna happen from now on, we'll abide it together & I'm always here, loving you still. I'm still willing to go through everything with you, no matter how painful is it gonna get. Time for us is bounded & we'll not let this get in our way. I would be more understanding from now, knowing that it isn't that you don't wanna spend time with me, you'd love to but school is taking up a lot of your time & what're more when you only get 4 hours(or less) everyday. We're going through this together, aren't we? Please forgive me for the wrong doings & times when I made you felt negative. I still love you the same, like how I did from the day I fell in love you with you, Xavier Lin. :]

Well, I wish that you would call me right now
So that I could get through to you somehow
But I guess it’s safe to say, baby, safe to say
that I-I’m officially missin’ you

Baby texted me once & said that she'd fall asleep anytime. I replied okay, I'll find entertainment myself tonight &there was no reply! Ok, not blaming her. She didn't like it either. My poor love, suffering since yesterday. >:( I'm sure she overworked herself. And I sighed. Anyhoos, we were texting happily & stupid me have to mention about tmr. We both kinda argued(?) a little & I really didn't know what to do. All I did was call her up & said "Hey baby. I love you. Goodnight" and I hung up. I don't know what to say la, aiyah. So she called me back & we cleared things up & we're alllllll good. :] Hehehe. OHOHOH &&&&!!! I LOVE JOEL LIN. :D Baby's mom got two tix to some concert & her mom wanted to ask baby to bring Joel along with her. So baby asked Joel if he wants to go & he's like "I don't want. I know you wanna go with Glynis right?" Hahah so cuteeeee. :] & baby's like yeah. And baby said to me that erm, I owe him a favour. Baby obviously asked him what he wants la & he's like "I don't want anything. I just want Lin Jun Jie's Yuan Lai" & I immediately said "I HAVE I HAVE!!" Haahaha. I told baby to tell him that I love him & I wanna hug him fucking tight when I see him. Joelllllllll, I love you & I will send the song to your sister okkkkkk. :) Yeh & baby turned green, over her blood brother. So cutee. :]

So my day was allright. Happy birthday to Mummy, I love you no matter how annoying you are. :) Went to Hai Tien Lo for breakfast with the family & back to Aunt's place. Watched MTV the whole day! Really fun though. Had dinner, cut cake & left first. Mom is still at Aunt's place I guess. No one opened the gates right? I think so. Hm. So I'm here! Talking to Anita. Hoho. x)

REPLIES!
(I haven't done this in awhile.. Hm.)
Amanda, I miss you so much please! Get your com fixed, quick!!! Ay update me quick! Hahah I know! I'm going none of it, I guess. >:( I'll be in China(wtf such a stupid place to go, I don't like) till your birthday. So I guess I will greet you late. Sorry darhL. :( Love you so manyyy! I'll be just fine babe. Catch up soon. (:
CherylFoo, I miss you & you seem to have forgotten about me. >:(
Pearlene, awww. :) hugs back!
Jasmine, in your blog.
NatLim, yeh sure I will let her know. Tiny natty. xD

So I'll leave you with some pictures as I end this post. :]




































Sarang Haeyo means I love you. :]



I think you should that I've been.. damaged.
<3.

9:30 PM
Mend this broken thing./
( )


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***
I'm sorry, let me be emo okay.

It's getting harder & harder each passing day but I'm we're holding on tight.

I indulged myself with idle daydreams. I tried to read my Literature notes last night but instead thoughts keep coming in & I soiled it with fucking tears. Our distance is killing me. I can't explain what's wrong, I don't even know what's wrong. I feel like we're drifting apart & we can never let that happen. Someday when we're both tired of the distance, then that's it, we'll be at the end of everything. Don't, please don't blame me for having fears. I can't help it either. I wish I could just ignore or pretend like these emotions never exist in me, but I can't. I've been trying to hide it, even from myself. I wonder sometimes, if it's just me with these illusions or it's really happening. I'm missing you more than ever. For some reasons, our distance is going further. I'm trying to pull it back but it isn't helping a little. I'm trying to find ways to get the two of us to talk it out but I can't. Each time I found one way to, I've to think about the outcome of it all. What if you're gonna tell me you're getting so sick & tired of this & you've decided to just let it go? Then it's back to square one. You'll be gone & I'm left alone. I'll see the heartbreaking times waving hello to me. I don't want. I can't take it.

You know things you do would make me smile, make me happy, get me excited all over. Like texting me good morning, calling me in the middle of the night just to say goodnight though the phone call woke me up & I just closed my eyes & smiled(fucking retarded I know but I did that ok) while I talk to you, wished that the conversation could last. Like when you tell me that you miss me & wish that our moments could last longer, when you tell me that you'd tell your mom that you're going out to look for me in the middle of the night when I was feeling down. Awww.. :(

Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts in you heart
Is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts
Is the only way now for you and me
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
'Coz true love never dies

And I pray, I hope, I wish that nothing will change, everything will stay the same. We'll still be us.

Each and every end is always written in the stars
If only I could stop the world, I'd make this last

And when you need my arms to run into
I'll come for you
Nothing will ever change the way I feel
- SClub7's Say Goodbye

***
Click on this.
Celeste Chen Ping just killed my eyes by putting that up on her entry. Fuck man, effin' sick! I feel like puking sia. Look at the video she made for Ian. Fucking sweet. Awww. (: Cel, I hope Ian comes back in four days time ok? More loving in your blog by then! :D

On a lighter note, it's Tan Xiu Wen's birthday today. She's officially seventeen today. :) so....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAN XIU WEN, MY KUEH BONG, MY EVER-SO-MANY-LAOPO LAOGONG! :D I'm so sorry for not joining you guys at dinner. :( Another time allright? We'll have belated birthday lunch or something! Lovelovelove. :]

I made three new friends his week! Omg. :) Shilin, Anita & Charmaine! :D Charmaine's really nice & sweet. Uber funny girl. Anita's friendly la, damn nice too. Full of nonsense & retarded! She's a passive too. (: Shilin's uber nice & friendly.

Check this out man., click here.
Uber funny! Hahah. (: Ning is still as bubbly as ever. Hee.

My gorgeous girlfriend takes more than an effin' hour to reply a sexy text. I bet she's in her groovy sleep or she's so into her sexy books. Hm, I shall be nice & be understanding. Hoho. I'm off to LJ. Gonna do memes & rant a little in there. :]

Bye sexys, do comment 'cos my comment box is like dead. Omg keep it aliveeeeeee!




Baby I can't let us go, never.
<3.

1:35 PM
Mend this broken thing./
( )


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* 18 & above get an exclusive section just for them
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***
Conclusion: Who I am hates who I've been & it's true.
Aiyah, whatever la.

I stared at this blogger page for awhile after I started with the title & all. I was at my worst yesterday & last night was disastrous. Why did I even let her words affect me without knowing the truth? I just assumed & thought that what she said would be true 'cos afterall it's her friend. All that hang in my mind was "I had enough of this. Please don't play with my heart. Don't break my heart slow". I don't know, like what baby said, I need to be myself again. Be unreasonable & care more for myself more instead.

I always thought giving you a lot more time on studies & time for you to rest would help. Moreover, you wanna score well this time & not let history repeat itself. But I was wronged, all these time. I hate to chase you away, asking you to go busy & study or turn in early. Our moments together aren't lasting & I don't get to hold you like these all the time. Why would I like keeping you away from me? I could never bring myself to ask you to accompany me over the phone or during weekends. I know it's gonna be hard on you if I do. 'Cos you've got your studies & your family to handle. I never blame you for that & that was why I chose to do everything alone, so I won't be in your way. Dya remember when was the last time we actually spend a whole day together, be it just plain shopping or just do some loving at your place? I guess I was too afraid to ask. I thought too much for you & too little for myself? No, this time I thought nothing of your feelings & unknowingly, I just let things go the way I want them to be, never wonder how you'd feel. I was in the wrong & I'm sorry, for doing all these without knowing, for feeling sorry. I hope you'd understand that Glynis is loving you too much that she's willing to give up her life for you & that was probably why she did all these. I love you more than I love Shane the hottie in Lword, JayChou the all-time AH!, Elmo the one I hug & kiss all the time & I would say, even myself.

..and I was too afraid of you, leaving again.
Acks. =\

I'll be the one making you feel alright
I'll be the one doing the things you like
I'll be the one keeping you up at night
I'll be the lover in your life
I'll be the one you're gonna wanna call, yeah
I'll be the one making you climb the walls
I'll be the one gon' have you beggin' me
I'll be the one, the one you need
- Dru Hill's I'll Be The One.

***
Ok enough of nonsense. Maths & Social studies today. Social studies was utter fuck. Maths was like a breeze. I hope I can pass Maths & not get a single digit for Social studies though I expected it. Haha. After papers, went home, showered & went to Braddell. :D Rebonded my hair & al. Dad came to fetch me! Thanks dad. <3!>:( Neh, you see. SP is robbing her away from me. I berii n0rt hAppiiE n0rhx. She's working now. I shan't complain. 10 more minutes till she knocks off. 2 hours & 10 minutes before she text me. She's been tiring herself out this few days & we agreed that we won't talk tonight(though I would reeeeeeeeeeeeally love to) & when she's in bed, text me goodnight & off to sleep. Oh last night we hung up at 1.30am & I stayed up till around 2plus.

I hate my hair condition now. Ugh, I can't pin it up. I look like some ghost. Omg. >:( I'll go entertain myself now. Jul's being so nice. :D She's spending some time to hear me whine!

Do you know I'm waiting for you, alllllll the time? )':



I want my baby.!!!! -looks at Qiaos & giggles





Do you have the time to hear me whine?
<3.

8:41 PM
Mend this broken thing./
( )


Our eyes are always open, devoted to perfection through silence.

Haven't I been the fool? I've become so selfless that whatever I do, all I can think about is you & for your good. I want the best for you. I agree that I've been selfish about some issues but you know what? I still let you have what you desire. Perhaps this isn't the way to handle this but I would rather get locked up inside than losing you. Simply because, my dearest you, I love you more than anyone else.

Sometimes words can't just simply describe how I feel.

It's not that I wanna hide & keep it to myself. I wish I could pour this out to someone who would understand & give me a solution. I have you but I don't know what would it be like after telling you. But one outcome that I will never want to happen is, two might become one. And I swear, that is one of my biggest fears now.

Keep me from the cold, love. I'm barely hanging on.
-

Enough of nonsense. School was bad. I got caught for my pinaform when my maid just altered it lower & extended the belt(cos it got cut) like two days before. Maths was uber fun. Did worksheets & I got back my mock test & I got 41/60. Mrs Ong praised me. :]:]:] I'm being proud here, haha. I haven't been praised for such a long time ok. Hm & I got punished during Chem. I got isolated & my dearest friends laughed at me instead of helping. Bloody hell, you. Hahah. Still can see 'Goodbye My Lover'! Thanks Vanessa, for helping me though. :] I got isolated.. Oh I said that already! Hm so yeap, sat right at the back of the class. 'Cos I didn't bring the paper. Bloody shit. Miss Su wants me to sit outside ok. Like so evil la. Then I refused to, insisted on sitting on my place. Hahah. Sat behind & slept until the bloody awful bell rang.

Went home after school. Showered, got my stuff & off to Compass. Met Qiaos, Shyan & Mich at Mos. Talked for awhile & we went down to BK to meet Jul & co. :) Sat around & uh studied. Ok I did write something on my paper ok & I did tried studying. At first we didn't really study. Hahha. Kept laughing & making fun of people. Laughed nonstop please! :D Mich & her retardedness, I so love. Went back at 6plus. Walked around & home. Daddy praised me for the results too. :] Uber happy. HHEHEHEH!

I'm off to study a little of SS & do maths paper one. Wish me luck everyone.

I love Jovene, she made me happy. Manys hearts to you babe!
We're hanging out soon to get.. uniforms. :D Like how funny.
Love you babeeeeeeeeee. (:


Eliza oh Eliza! :D Hahah I'm your fucking fan!!! Omg please hang out with me sooon! I beg youuuu!
That's really crazy, I'm sorry. Hahah. Where are you!!!?!?


Just when I needed you most. :)






Baby, you & I, this is perfecto.
<3.

7:27 PM
Mend this broken thing./
( )

I got this from Nat. :D Hahah. Lovely day & I'm lazy to blog about it.
Qiaos thanks for the photos. :D Love you many uncool one.!


I dread schooooooooool.

And thank you for leaving me behind.
Abandoned? Yes, I hope not.



x a v ` says:
friendships are like human relations. no matter how old,how young,we've to all learn to deal
♥ GLYNIS says:
yeh i guess. :\ like whats going on in my fucked up school life.
x a v ` says:
its always like this.
x a v ` says:
human relations has nv been easy..
♥ GLYNIS says:
i wish i can make it easier, for me.
x a v ` says:
you cant,you can only choose to take it lighter..
x a v ` says:
den you'd feel better i guess.
♥ GLYNIS says:
i hope, i pray, i wish. >:(

I wish I could just make them disappear so I won't have to worry so much & feel stupid about it. Fuck man. The problem is, no matter how light I take it, it's there. I wonder if it last till Friday or something. I'll get fucking affected & my midyears? I'm dead. I hate to see ____ walking away. It isn't nice knowing that a part of you is away? I don't know la. I hope, I pray, I wish. Baby really, thanks for being there when I needed you most. Your comfort weren't as good as your presence but it somehow helped. :) Thanks baby & I love you.






I love you baby. :] thanks for today.
I love you & I hope you feel the same way too.
<3.

9:44 PM
Mend this broken thing./
( )


It's so unbelievable, And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful, Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been, forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love, Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.

- Unbelievable by Craig David

I had a great day today though there were ups & downs somewhere. :)
We had lovely drama skit put up by.. some boardway thing. It was whimsical. Really funny &amp; retarded. The tribal dance & all. Kelly & Rina was called out to do it in front of the whole fucking school la. Haha, I was laughing like fuck. I haven't had such a good laugh for a really long time. After that was SS. Did nothing 'cos Miss Ng was late& I didn't bring my workbook. Haha, CME next! It was fun. Did group work, presented it to Miss Toh & we camwhored! :D It's in Qiaos's cam so I've to wait for her to upload it into her comp first. Damn excited 'cos I look different there. Hee, I wore Qiaos's glasses! Hahah, I'm gonna get mine soon. Maths was okay, did nothing much actually. :)

Recess, ate & went to Artroom. Fuck, I love drawing contours & blind contours. It's so fun yknow! so we did on geatures today & drew a lot. Did some splattering of paints & off to PE. As usual, we sat around & crapped. :D Hee. Went off to tell Miss Teh I couldn't stay for Art 'cos I was feeling unwell. Went to get my stuff, took a bus to Compass & met baby. Walked to polyclinic & got my MC. Left without taking the medications. Hahah, baby wanted to go to the bank but it was effin' crowded! Decided to queue tmr instead. Went off to eat my shakers fries! :D:D yay baby yay! She's uber retarded, as usual. Honey called & we met up! Hahah. For like fifteen seconds. I haven't seen her for about a year man. Haha, Ben & Kazaf was there too with another friend. So baby & I went to walk around & sat at our favourite spot again. :) I accidentally hit on baby's chin & her lips started bleeding. I panicked & ran off to get tissues. Baby I'm so fucking sorry. :( -kiss I'm so fucking guilty & I wish I could take the pain away. I'm really fucking sorry & I love you. I will love you a lot more okay.

Sent her off to the train station. Saw Honey they all again. Stupid Ben, she's forever disturbing me man. Hahah. Home, showered & online!

Just helped baby with her things & all. Well, my Adobe Reader has come to a use. :D hee. I'm off to study. I've promised Julllllllll that I will do a little of work & get my maths textbook tmr & bring it home. :D

Heehee & I cried in baby's arms today. She smell like ocean, like body shop.
And Love, I definitely enjoyed my day with you. :)
(teehee) :D











There's nowhere else I'd rather be to feel the way I feel with your arms around me
<3.

7:00 PM
Mend this broken thing./
( )


The prints we took on Saturday. I can't wait to hang out with her again. (:














***


The love of my life.
I'm so in love with her. :D

I still remember that day. I woke up early in the morning to go over to her place. Fooled around & Joel screamed at her to ask her to shower & he wanted to use the comp. Haha, baby, being the hot-tempered one, slammed the door & yelled at him. I told her to go & shower, let him use the comp as promised. & she did. :) I'm amazed by the way the two of them would just pretend like nothing happened &amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;amp; be all okay again. Zel & I can't & I seriously admire that. So she started making her hair after showering & Joel asked about the online games thingy(if you did read my past entries), fucking funny. At this point of time, while I'm typing this, the whole scene replays & I miss Joel Lin. Well, definitely not more than I miss his sister. :) We got ready & all, went down to Bangkit then back to the train station. Down to Bugis & when we walked past the prints shop, I kept asking her to take with me but she don't want. So I gave her that pout look & she's like okay la okay la, let's go. Heh. :D I always winnnnn. Ha.

I wish everything would just stop there, baby. I miss you so much. I miss the way you would disturb me, try to find ways to hug & kiss me. I miss the way you insist that you win, insist that I should eat more & you eat less, insist that you're fatter than me 'cos you've got hiden fats, insist that you love me more than I love you, insist that we should compare who's eyes is smaller instead of bigger, insist that you should send me home. I miss that silly look on your face whenever I said something stupid, your angry face when I do something wrong. I even miss the way you would push up your glasses. I find it fucking silly but I miss them all baby. I've spent the whole afternoon, thinking what other ways is there to salvage this. I don't like the feeling of missing you so much, knowing that you're just beside me(mentally) & not being able to hold you. I hate it whenever I look at my cell, there isn't any phone calls nor texts. Even if there is, none of them is from you. I kept telling myself I've to learn to endure this 'cos baby's studying & I musn't complain. I don't deny I'm sick of waiting for you. But it's all worth while, really. I don't enjoy waiting but when it comes to you, I'm being fucking biased. I swear I'm going crazy. I guess I got so used to meeting you three times a week. Once a week isn't long enough to survive. & that one meeting was only two fucking hours. Baby if you don't know I'm always counting down to the hours till I see you again. :(

ARGH. I shouldn't complain, yes I shouldn't.
Fuckshit. >:(

English paper was aye-okay. I think it shouldn't be a problem. I think I would be able to pass. :D Shakers Fries after school! Oh shitshitshitshitshit. I just remembered I promised baby I wouldn't eat it unless it's with her. Oh fook man. Ok nevermind, I'll deal with it later. Anyhoos, shakers fries was good. Fucking hell, I wanted it so badly la ok. Hahah, 'cos Cel & Tammy eats it like everyday! & they always talk about it in their entries & all. Hahah. Sat around at BK. Printed the photos! Uber happy. :D Walked around, Sass & Yj left first. Bestaye & I walked around & went back at 3plus. (: Baby called just now while she was exchanging class. Aw, I still miss her so fucking much.

There're a lot more twits & minas in school. What is SJC becoming! >:( Gawd. It's totally spoiling the image, a lot more than before. And I think the prints are rather small ay? Ok random.

I'm gonna update my LJ & do some study for friday's social studies. Oh fuck & my art research! I'm motherfucking dead. Should I just skip school tmr? I hope SJ is skipping school. :D Hahah.



Words don't come easily baby.

Her: What are you doing?
Me: Nothing.
Her: What happened to you?
Me: Nothing.
Her: Why sian sian one?
Me: Huh, nothing la.
Her: Miss me ah?
Me: Mmhmm. ):



It gets harder everyday.
<3.

9:45 PM
Mend this broken thing./
( )


One night stand@dxo
12th june 2006
18presale 20 atthedoor
No age limit.
Featuring local bands such as Electrico and appearance by local celebs.
It's an alcoholic/non-alcoholic party. so bring ID if you want.
SPREAD THE WORD!
Contact Stephanie through Friendster/ stephh.c@hotmail.com

***
Met Bestaye at school's bus stop, waited for Sassy to come & we went in. Sat around the canteen for awhile, went up & the teachers were calling us to help them with the tables & chairs, we just walked away. Lol, so we went to a cornor of the school to sit. Yj, Sassy, Bestaye, SJ, Angeline & I. :) 8am & we went to the hall for oral. Frikkin' nervous 'cos I knew I won't be able to make it. What's more when it's Chinese, yknow. It was difficult but not as difficult as I thought it'd be.

Took a bus back to Compass. Adel don't take Chinese, she takes Malay. Why nobody tell me that & I only know that after we know each other for four fucking years. -.- Sorry Adel, I really don't know. )= So I went home, showered & texted Eliza. That sexy one was taking her own sweet time. Funniest la she. So I used the comp till around 1030am & I left the house. Took a train down to Dhoby Ghaut & walked around. She arrived at 1230 & she's kinda lost. Oh fuck man, this girl ah. Omg she's like some direction idiot. She doesn't know how to get to M-Industrie from the MRT station, the one behind the bus stop. She's damn cute la okay.

So we went on talking & walking at the same time. Head down to Fareast & spent an hour looking for the printing shop. Stupidly, we didn't realised that you know, Fareast have a information counter. -.- Hahah! Went to ask & went up to look for the shop. Eliza took a damn long time to decide. Went down to Incuebox(spell?) & bought sheet covers. :D Fucking adorable. She kept saying 'Ay get one for Xav la. Heh.' Hahah. Oh & they sell this earpiece that is something like a phone's handset, just the handset yknow! Connect to your cell phone & you can use. Omg bloody cute. I think I'm gonna buy it for baby someday. :D Hee. I like the tiny pillows! :D Omgomgomg, I like I like. Eliza & I wanted it so badly. But we couldn't buy it 'cos it's only for display & it belongs to the designer! Roar, I want! Went back up to the printing store. That owner of the shop!! !@#$%^&*() Okay, seriously, Eliza & I wanted to just slap her across the face. But we couldn't la, 'cos we need her help & al. Hm, told her design & everything. Went for Eliza's Fried Mars Bars. :D Haha. Walked around. It got really boring 'cos we've already walked the whole of Fareast while looking for that shop. Then we walked to Lido. Went up to the cinemas these & talk. Saw Qiaos with Emy! :D Hahah. They were deciding on movies to watch & all. The couple beside us were making out, hur, in public. Make out kids = no money to go hotel. :D Hahah that's our conclusion. So scandalous. :D The shop owner(!!) texted Eliza instead of calling her. Like what the hell? Hahah & her text goes "your pillowcase is ready for collection. Smart image". Eliza read it & when it comes to the Smart, she thought that she wanted to say she was smart or something. Hahah then we walked back & collect it. :D Trigger happy.

So we finally left Fareast & head down to Taka. While walking down to Taka, some ahlians came right in front of Eliza & look at her then went back to her friends who were behind us. -roll eyes. Crazy, total waste of time luh. We saw Ethan! He's that little boy who play drums since 2. :D Damn talented pleaseeeeee. Uber cute too. :D Ate at Mos. Saw Juliet but she didn't see me. Hahah. Talked & left after while. Went to buy Eliza's headband & walked to Cine. Took prints & we acted like some ahlians walking into the shop mans. Hahah. :D Walked to the train station & we went on our seperate ways. :)

My legs were killing me but I'm uber happy. Thanks Eliza for making my day. :D Uh huh & we're gonna meet up again in school uniform. Hahah. Blue Vs. White.. badge. :D Hoho. Baby's happy for me in finding a friend who's like me. Hahah seriously, Eliza & I are so alike. Not appearance definitely, 'cos that girl's fucking gorgeous & I'm fucking not. We like the same thing, hate the same thing, feels the same way. :) It's like getting to know another Glynis. Aw, I love you Eliza! :D Heh.

My legs are still aching, like what the fuck. It's fucking painful. Hahah. I fucking wanna watch Lword, anyone has got the dvd/vcd, please lend it to me! :D

Photoshop is killing me. Ok random shit. English paper tmr. :( I'm gonna memorise the format & do up the board. :D Hahah. Supposed to do aomething for Mom 'cos her birthday's coming. Next Sunday! I'll probably write her a letter & get her something. I don't know la. I've been thinking of it since the last two weeks. Gawddddd.


Shane McCutcheon = Fucking hawtttttttt. :D



I'm loving you more and more each passing day. :]
You + Me = Us.







We will still be friends forever. :]
<3.

8:22 PM
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♥ Love is the answer to most of the questions I have in my heart. :)

Talked to baby till 12plus going 1am last night. Went into peaceful sleep after that. I was so fucking tired please. Could hardly open up my eyes this morning, haha. Something fucking shocking happened to me this morning & only baby, myself & Qiaos knows about it. =\ Fuck luh, I swear it affected me the whole day. ):

Got to school, sat quietly on my own. Got out zenbaby & took out the book & started reading. At the back of my mind, all I can think about is what happened. I kept checking my phone for baby's replies but no avail. When she finally did, I told her what happened & we both had the same reaction. But at that time, I was already calmer that I was earlier. So I told baby to chill & all. It is still bothering me, I hope mom doesn't mention anything about it. I pray, I hope, I wish. Oh & as for baby, I hope her dad returns her the book(it's mine, uncle. I haven't had the chance to read it & you did. Ayyyyyy.) & mention nothing about anything. Again, I pray, I hope, I wish.

School was boring. Miss Su made us do mindmaps for Chem this morning & I did! Hahah I understand something about Acids & Bases now. :D Hoho. Then it was PE. Uber funny. Serene was telling Xiuwen about this true cigarettes ghost story that she read on the magazines(she even cut it out). Shangari was being annoying, she kept "Uh huh", "Then?", "Mmhmm?" when she don't understand a single fuck. Hahah, so Rachael, Mich & I did the same. Hahah Serene was supa annoyed. Then Serene put her bag on top of mine & she laid back down. Hahah, we were laughing at the class playing captain's ball. I swear, Serene's laughter is uber contagious! Hahah, the way she laugh makes me wanna laugh.

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Blogger just fucking deleted my entire entry & when I clicked on recover post, the above was what they gave me. Ugh, so pissed! Ok I'll cut short everything yes. So after school, we all went to Miss Yeo's homeroom 'cos she said she wanna give us remedial still depite the pft later in the afternoon. We went there & stayed till 3pm. Played hangman, uber retarded & funny. Qiaos was the loser la. I won 6 games & she only won one. Hahah. Left at three. They went for their pft & I went outta school, cabbed home. Got home, showered, online. I was supposed to study la. I promised baby I would. Had tuition just now, so I studied. Did my maths papers & all. Hahha. Ate fried rice for dinner. :D Yummmmeh. Waiting for baby to come home now. ): Another 20 more minutes before she knocks off, another 2 hours plus before she can talk to me. Fridays are dark & sad. :(

"It's not always easy & sometimes life can be deceiving"
Agree, or not? :]

I miss baby so much. The last text I got from her was 7plus in the morning when I told her about what happened. :( The last phone call from her was last night. If my phone's gonna ring now, I'll be trigger happy. Hahah. Anyhoos, there's Chinese oral tmr at 745am. Meeting the rest for breakfast at Rivervale Mall. :D After that, I'll be meeting Eliza at Dhoby Ghaut. :D Lunch & gonna do some shopping. Hohoho. x)

Thanks Steph, for helping me with my LJ layout. :D Thanks a lot babe, I love you! :D Shar, cheer up & I love you! Everything will be allright. Hugs!


'Cause everytime we touch,
I get this feeling,
and every time we kiss,
I swear I can fly
Can't you feel my heart beat fast?
I want this to last,
need you by my side.
'Cause everytime we touch,
I feel the static,
and everytime we kiss,
I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat so?
I can't let you go,want you in my life.


Shane is just someone in the show, need not get so affected by her ok? Hugs u tight. I love you a lot more that her being so fucking hot in the show. I love you a lot more than I love the show. I don't mind giving up that three seasons for you baby. :) I'm not gonna get so affected when your special friend calls you up & ask about school. I'll be aye-okay. Afterall, she's just a friend. Uh huh. & baby, where's your confidence? :(

Xiang ni, hen xiang ni.
Miss you, miss you a lot.
Piérdale, le pierde mucho
Vous manquer, vous manquez beaucoup
Ich werde Sie verpassen, verpasst Sie viel

):






Like a shoebox of photographs with sepia tone loving.
<3.

9:37 PM
Mend this broken thing./
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It's an alcoholic/non-alcoholic party. so bring ID if you want.
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***
I'm falling asleep, my eyelids are supa heavy. Yawns. ): Slept later last night & I had a tiring day. I just got home like two hours ago.

Happiest Thursday, three periods of SS & Miss Ng didn't come to school. :D I was hoping to see Sharilyn at school so I can give her a big comfy hug but no, she walked the other way to her class instead. Hm, had English first. Rather boring. I guess Mrs Soon is rather tired putting up with the class's nonsense. =\ Next was Chinese & I practically did nothing except talking to Qiaos about my day yesterday & all, radom stuff. :) Then we had SS! Free period. Hahah all we did was ate. Gawdddd. Then was Maths. Did straight line graph! :D I got 6/6 for that! Heh it's damn simple, I thought. First time full marks for such test ay! (baby please be proud of me) :D Hee. Back to SS class. Did Maths papers & listened to zenbaby until Miss Lee came in. Yeap, recess next. We stayed in the room & ate Bestaye's fooooood. :D Yummeh. SS again, did nothing much. Read my book & rest for awhile. Back to English class, go through the English compre & did corrections. Bloody hell, I scribbled nonsense that day & I only got 14/40 =X Ugh. Then it was Chem. We strolled to the lab, hahah. Damn boring luh! Did the last bit on Organic Chem & free time! :D & four of us sat together & talked about stupid porn. Hahha bloody disgusting & funny siallll. Shaggy, oh yeah shaggggggy. :D *looks at Bestaye

After school! We skipped Chinese remedial 'cos Sassy & I find it rather boring & Rachel said that it's the last time we're gonna have remedial. Uh huh, so I went Rivervale Mall to have lunch with the other three. LJS! :D Heh each time I'm in there, it'd definitely remind me of baby.(& I miss eating LJS with baby) HEEHEE. Ate, talked & Qiaos went back first 'cos she's got netball interhouse. :) Waited for Bestaye's mom, she came to fetch us to Compass 'cos it was raining like crazy. Ho. :)

Got to Compass, went to get some stuff & went to find Yj. She was with Vicky, Xiuwen & Cecilia. Went away for awhile & they all left to go back to school. Sat around, talked while I wait for the rain to stop. Left the place at 5pm. It was still raining so I took the longer route home. On the way, I thought of how scary that shit happened at Pending station that day & what could have happened if I didn't act fast. I was so afraid & whenever I'm alone, I still feel the chill down my spine. & the only thing I thought was what baby said when I told her. She isn't beside me, which obviously I wished she was. But her words, her tone when she said that, actually comforts me. It made me felt a tiny weeny bit better though. All in all, I miss her so much. Well, afterall she's back in school & she ought to spend more time with her studies then me. Perhaps not just her studies, other more important issues like her family & her friends.

I realised I've been so negative. I told baby if she can't cope, she can neglect me. I don't want her to but it's the best way, I thought. I mean, who likes to be neglected anyway, especially when I don't deny that I'm a big attention seeker towards her. Her attention was essential & somehow it's effortful to get it. So whenever I get a miniature dose of her attention, blissful is the word. :)

I'm getting bored.

Things I should do/ must do/ feel like doing:
1) Call baby. ):
2) Do up the quiz that I took from Pearlene's LJ
3) Continue blogging about random stuff.
4) Stand up & start dancing 'cos Hips Don't Lie is playing! :D
5) Finish my literature homework, there's Lit tmr ):
6) Do Maths!!!
7) Finish up Angels In Pink! :D Fucking nice book.
8) Watch Lword - A must!
9) Buy photo frames.
10) Do my Art research.
11) Fucking start on my revision
12) Do up the boarddddddd. :)
13) Make changes to my blog.

There's a lot more but I can't think of any now. =\

Hips Don't Lie is on repeat instead & YouTube.com is uploading its video. :D Heh. Pert just showed me a little of Lword on YouTube. Omgomgomg, I wanna watch! & dad was being a loser..

*Hips Don't Lie on repeat*
Zel: Ay I like this song ay
Me: Nice right -sings
Dad: Ay what song is this ah?
Zel: Ay jiejie! Daddy ask what song is this leh!
Me: Really? *shouts* Yes daddy, what did you say?
Dad: What song is this?
Me: Hips Don't Lie, daddddy!
Dad: Ah see, even the song also say, Kids Don't Lie
Me & Zel: *laughs hard*
Dad: Correct what right, laugh for what.
Me: Omg daddy you're bloody loser, it's Hips Don't Lie.
Dad: See, Kids Don't Lie! Ask you don't lie la, now even songs also ask you not to lie
Me: Daddy, it's HIPS, HIPSSSSS, you know HIPS? Don't Lie.

The song was on repeat &&&,
Dad: Again ah? No other songs ah girl?
Me: Ay I like this song ma.
Dad: Keep repeating. Crazy.
Me: I thought you said you like this song?
Dad: Later your computer spoil ah.
Me: -.-

Stupid daddy, he's damn funny la. =) I'm meeting Eliza on Saturday after Chinese Oral! :D YAY. Gonna get stuff, have lunch & all. Whee. Hee. So excited la.


Girlfriend, I hope everything's well & good at home. I'm always here okay? Hugs tight. I love you so many. I wanna make your mornings better okay! :D Hee. Kiss!

Sassy, Qiaos, Bestaye & Michy! :D I love y'all. Thanks for making school days so much better. :) Thanks for standing by me throughout all these painful times. I'm so glad I've still got y'all. We wil have another RARE outing soon okay! :D Heh. Much loveddddddd. :)




Girlfriend, I want allllll your attention.
<3.

6:48 PM
Mend this broken thing./
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Hello everyone. :)
I had a fucked up night 'cos of toilet runs, twice. Went to school & found out that four of us, mainly Sass, Bestaye, Qiaos & I woke up at around 2-4am the night before to shit. Roflol, how coincidence! We were laughing about it this morning. Hymn-singing again & off to Bio. It was uber boring. Did some test papers, talked a little. Maths, we did last year's prelim papers. Omg my head was twirling la ok. & I was so damn tired & on the verge of putting my head now & rest. Managed to finish all the questions & off to basement. Ate & went to Chinese class. Sassy was having a hard time fighting with her painful tummy. I wonder if it was the blue plate.. Hm, Chinese was boring too. Did papers, slept, read my book & went through the answers. Lit, it was boring & all of us are falling asleep. The only thing that enlighten me was "I'm meeting girlfriend pretty soon". Heh uber excited! Got called down to Miss Teh's homeroom, wasted time there & left at around 2 plus. Cabbed down to Compass with Pam & SJ! :D Thanks you both! SJ helped me drop Sassy's book, thanks many girllll. Oh did I mention that I'm sitting with SJ, Yj & Pam during Maths? Hahah We sat in a row. Quite fun actually, having the retard SJ sitting with me.

Got home, had lunch, showered, used the comp for an hour. Left the house at 415pm to look for baby. :) Heh. When I got downstairs, she texted me & said that she's reaching. Hippyheyho! :D Met her at the train station exit. Top up her card & she sent me off for piano lessons. Hahah I abandoned her for 15 minutes. =X & she waited outside for me since then! :D Thanks baby, muahs! Walked around, sat at our favourite spot. :) Talked, laughed & crapped like crazy. Lmao, baby said she was hungry so we went to Old Chang Kee, grabbed something & she sent me home. Home, dinner with mom & tuition.

That silly girl, she's still as retarded as before. Baby I meant what I said in the letter & I hope you'd understand yes? I love you, just like how I did since then. Fret not, I'll not give you another reason to leave. :) for you, I'll learn to smile again okay? Don't worry. We'll start afresh & forget everything unhappy yes? We're hitting 4 months in another 11 days. :D I love you.



Baby called & uhhhhh, I'll go talk to her.
YAY.
I love you, so much so much girlfriend.!







Wanting you more & more 'cos your love's in the air
<3.

9:23 PM
Mend this broken thing./
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6:51 PM
Mend this broken thing./
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I see a sense of wonder deep inside your eyes
As we're sparkling and twirling in the twilight
And after three long years, I think that we both need this
So we seal the deal in the parking lot with a kiss

And in case you
And in case you were wondering, you are like a sunset to me
You're all kinds of beautiful as you end my day
And you sweetly retire as stars chase you away

I'd collapse to the grass, with your notes ringing in my head
Let the rain fill my mouth, and in a couple hours I'll be dead
But all the while my lips are whistling our tune
But the beauty lies in how you will revive me soon

And in case you, and in case you
And in case you were wondering, you are like a sunset to me
You're all kinds of beautiful as you end my day
And you sweetly retire as the stars chase you away

And in case you were wondering, you are like a sunset to me
You're all kinds of beautiful as you end my day
And you sweetly retire as the stars chase you away

And in case you were wondering, you are like a hurricane to me
Your violence is beautiful, and your center sweet
Now tell me this, do you know how we'd meet?

And in case you were wondering, you are everything to me (to me)
- Sunset & Car Crashes!
Love the song.

I've been talking to Eliza online since 5.30pm till now, 8.36pm. :) I feel that we were twins in our past life 'cos we've got so much in common. Whatever that she thinks & feels, I think & feel the same way too. Even our favourite bands, we have so much in common. We shared a lot. The past, current love of our lives, gossips, Ronin(!!!), spammers, our stupidity & definitely, our first meeting. :) We're meeting up soon, with the love of our lives, I hope. I'm dying to meet Eliza. We can talk non stop, yo. Hahah. I want to meet Kris & I want her to meet Love. Thank God for Eliza. I love you girl! <3

School's been allright. :) Just that I got the deadlines for English homework wrongly. -.- I rushed like crazy for vocab exercise last night while I talked on the phone with Love. When I got to school, Yan Nee told me it was the other way round - Vocab on Thurs & Compre today. Copied a little here & there, left four empty. We had Maths first. Mrs Ong is. Not in a good mood, I'd say. Last week, I left my bag on another chair, I'm very sure she saw it but she didn't say anything. Today she asked, "Glynis, you want your bag to be in the bin isit?" So I put it down. We were going through the Maths mock papers & I got the question right. I was just staring at the paper, fidgeting with my nails & she said, "Glynis, you very bored huh? You got it all right is it? You know your work?" Righttttttt. Pamela just kept saying "She like to eat snake one lor. Everytime waste time" Okay, then was English. It was uber boring. ): Thank God Bestaye was next to me. :D Then we had Bio. Some dumb test & I got like 28/50! I passed. Hee. :D Went down to the basement to have recess. Three idiots. Fucking funny. I enjoyed myself though. Bestaye, Sassy & I bought something to eat & we shared. Bestaye got sausages, Sassy got that green waffle-shaped crackers &&& I bought my favvvvv, fried rice with lettuce. I love my maid la. :D Ate, talked, crapped. Had so much fun that I forgot I was supposed to finish up my English. Then it was Chinese. Rushed through the English while Lin laoshi give out M&Ms & return our scripts. :D I got 6.5/10 for my letter-writing :D Hee, I'm happy. Love's gonna be proud of me! Heh. After two periods of Chinese, horror came. We thought it was gonna be horrible but not. :) Miss Teh's all nice. Bestaye wanted to change her final design & Miss Teh said, "But deadline's tmr you know? You think you can finish? Try ok." Something like that. She asked her to try you know, TRY!!!!! I feel that if I ever said the same thing that Bestaye said to her, she's gonna flare up. She simply hates the sight of me, she give me such a feeling yknow. Phew, thank God she didn't scold me today. All she did was just "tmr deadline you know!" in that kidding manner. Ho. x)

After school! Sass & I went to the library at Compass to borrow books. :D It's been long since I last readdd. I'm starting to fall in love with books again. Borrowed three & left. Down to Mos, we had our lunch there. Chanced upon Qiaos & Mich. :D We crapped like crazy there, haha. There were like 5 tables of SJC girls including Qiaos & our table. We refused to sit with them, we didn't asked them to join us or rather they didn't asked us to join them. Ok whatever it is, we sat on different tables luh ok. Sassy is funny, as always. I like it when she's all retarded & funny. Hahah. Down to Cold Storage after that. Qiaos bought cereal, jellybeans! & mentos. Mich bought mentos. I bought magazines. :D Hee. Went up to Compass Heights & waited for Yj to come. Talked, laughed, crapped, as usual. We were being so disgusting. But oh welllllllllls. :) Yj came, left at around 4pm.

Showered, online. :D I'm dead, I swear. My miniatureeeeeee. ): I can't finish! If I can't finish, I'm gonna skip school. Get a MC tmr morning & go down to SP to look for Love! Teehee. :D Ok I better stop my nonsense. I'm off to finish up my stupid miniature.





This love aren't as sincere & I can't feel.
So unfeeling honey.
Maybe someday this love will be enough, will be enough.
I hope you are still you & you are still here.










In case you're wondering, you're everything to me. :)
<3.

8:35 PM
Mend this broken thing./
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That dumb bitch.
Natasha Quek Shi Hui. >:@
She's going for 2006 Vans Warped Tour.
I didn't know what was that until she showed me this, click here.
RAH! I wanna go! 8th July. -frowns.

And...

18 Visions
AFI
Aiden
The Academy Is
Adair
Against Me!
Alexisonfire
Amber Pacific
Anti Flag
Armor For Sleep
ASG
Billy Talent
The Bled
Bouncing Souls
Bullet For My Valentine
Buzzcocks
Cartel (!!!!!!!)
The Casualties
Die Hunns
Dork
Down To Earth Approach
Dropping Daylight
The Early November (!!!!)
Eight Fingers Down (Bbq Band)
Emanuel
Emery
Evaline
Every Time I Die
The Fall Of Troy
Flashlight Brown
From Autumn To Ashes
From First To Last
The Fully Down
Gatsbys American Dream
The Germs
Greeley Estates
Gym Class Heroes
Hellogoodbye
Helmet
I am Ghost
Joan Jett & The Blackhearts
Less Than Jake
The Living End
Moneen
Motion City Soundtrack (!!!!!!!!!!)
Mute Math
My American Heart
Nofx
Outernational
Over It
Paramore (!!!)
The Pink Spiders
Pistolita
Plain White T's
Protest The Hero
Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Reggie & The Full EffectRise Against
Riverboat Gamblers
Saosin
Saves The Day
Senses Fail (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
Shiragirl
Silverstein
The Sounds
State Radio
Stretch Arm Strong
Sum 41
The Sunstreak (Bbq Band)
Thursday
Underoath
Valient
Thorr
Voltera
We Are The Fury
Wheels On The Bus
Zebrahead
Zox

the above bands will be there. The bolddddd ones are the one I'm more interested in & the reason why I'm dying to be there.

QUEK!!! >:@ >:@ >:@
Okok, enough. Hm I've been so pissed with her since I woke up. Bitch. >:(

Last night, went for dinner with family & went to my maid's nephew's condo to pass him stuff 'cos he's going back for vacation. Dinner was greeeeeat. :) After that, we went home. I was struggling with the dumb radio that refuses to swtich to Power 98 for me. -frowns I used my hi-fi set in my room to check the right station. I keep running from this room to another. Funniest, mom was like, ay ay ay what happened what happened!! Hahah. I burst out laughing. Everyone in the house was so silent except for me. Dad was in the hall watching soccer, mom watching her korean drama series, Zel & my maid went out to Compass to get ice cream. When I finally got the station, I sat down & did my work. Dictionary is my best friend. Stupid vocab exercise! I've been flipping the dictionary ever since. Called up Qiaos & talked for 2hrs. :) My phone was charging so I didn't notice if there was any texts coming in. When I went to get my phone, silly Love texted me(!!!!!!!!!!!). I didn't texted her the whole day but I kept staring at my phone, wondering why she didn't & I thought I shouldn't disturb her 'cos she said she wanna stay home & rest the night before. She was waiting for my text the whole day & thought that I didn't text her 'cos I don't miss her at all. I swear, the both of us are so silly. :) Even Qiaos feel that way, about what happened on Friday.

Talking about Qiaos..

Me: Who you messaging?
Qiaos: Michelle. She asked me to go church but I don't wanna go. *whines*
Me: Oh. Why?
Qiaos: I'm very tired you know! And I've got a lot of work undone leh.And the place is Expo leh, so far! It's like you going to meet Xavier can but it's shorter la.
Me: Yeah yeah expo damn farrrrrrrrrr. Then I think you better stay home.
Qiaos: Yeah but............. I don't wanna go!
Me: Don't go la, fan si ren.
Qiaos: You know ah, actually church is fun la. I met this bung who happens to know Geraldine you know! The superstar one, you like one.
Me: Omgomgomg, are you. Serious?
Qiaos: Yeah!!! But we didn't exchange contact number la.
Me: Wahlauuuuuuu.
Qiaos: Ay actually I should go church right! Then if that bung there then I can like talk to her & make friends & get to know Geraldine right! Ay I should go.
Me: *giggling* I swear you're fucking funny! Complain so much about being tired & heavy workload, in the end still decide to go.
Qiaos: *giggles* Yeah lor yeah lor.

We started talking about other things &&&,

Qiaos: Aiyah, I don't wanna go already I tell Michelle.
Me: Huh! You going or not?
Qiaos: No, I tell her already.
Me: Tell Michelle already?
Qiaos: Wha first time. She say ok then.

-.-
I feel like killing her ok. I almost died laughing please.

Love called up at 12.30am & we talked till 3am. That silly, she slept for almost the entire afternoon & she's still tired. She's turning into a pig. I swear. Heehee, I want her to actually. :D I told her, eat more sleep more la! Become like pig then you know.

I'm not meeting Love tmr anymore. >:( Her break's from 11am till 1pm. RAH!! Can't SP just compromise! Bitchhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.





Love, I lovelovelove you. :)
<3.

5:24 PM
Mend this broken thing./
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I'll have to say goodbye to another loved one by the end of this year, which is around November. We aren't exactly close like how I'm close to my girls, but we shared quite a lot. Our joy, happiness, pain, tears & fears. She was a part of my past, a happy past. Days when I was with her were fun, I loved being with her. When we both went onto our seperate ways, she stayed the same. She was there when I needed her. She never fail to make me smile with her words. I never knew how much she meant to me until she said she was gonna leave when she finishes her Os this year. I looked back & thought, why did I let time slip away again? Why didn't I treasure her better? It's another seven months before she depart from this place. By then, she's gonna be so so far away from me. I don't know how am I gonna do but I think I'll be able to get by. Memories of her & me, I'm gonna keep.

If by smacking me a thousand times & though it hurts like crazy but it'd make you stay for a lifetime, go on. Please remember me 'cos you would definitely be in my memory, never forgotten.

And the above is for Jace, my beloved son.

3:24 PM
Mend this broken thing./
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-looks at AMD. :)

I'm sorry about last night, Love. ): It won't happen again. I love you. :) Slept at 2am after talking to Love & slept till 4, someone called & went back to sleep only at around 7plus in the morning. -.- Woke up again at 11am. Did a little of my work before I went out.

Now talk about my happywappy day. :) Stayed home till 1pm, did a little of my work & used the comp for like an hour. Dad sent me to Compass & went to take the train. Something fucking silly happened. When I think back about it, I had a good laugh, wondering why am I so paranoid. But well, thank God actually. He heard my prayers, I supposed. Thank you. :) Cried in the train till I got to her place. Panicked when I didn't get to see her in 5, how silly. Thanks Bestaye for calling at the right time when tears were about to fall. :) Some cheekopek ought to die, seriously. _l_ Talked till she appear behind me. She was wet 'cos it was raining heavily. Got into the LRT and sat down. There was silent, awfully but when we got into the train, everything was fine.

Took a train down to Jurong East, changed train & down to Changi Airport. :) We were making fun of people on the way. Saying how that lady in green & black can camouflage with her green & black strips brolly, how that guy with torn jeans should get a new pair, how that girl with short tee & low jeans should get a longer one, how I should act like a girl & not like her, how that white-hair-ed guy with that don'tknowwhoisshetohim girl fell asleep just like that with iPod stuck in their ears, how old is that bung beside the couple. :) Retarded & funny, as ever. Her colleague came in at Tanah Merah later on, the same pretty girl I saw the other time. :) She's pretty & she looked mixed, I'm serious. She thought I was gonna join them for lunch, hahah. Love asked if I was feeling uncomfortable, but seriously, I wasn't. Physically, yes. Haven't been feeling well this few days, for god knows why. Anyhoos, Love walked me to the bus stop and she went off. :) Took 27 back & changed 372 to Aunt's place. Played stupid Playstation with Cherilyn & ate a little. Dad wanted to come home so he bought my maid & I back with him. :)

I went to weigh and I lost 1kg! :D Mom said it's working & I ought to continue. Like yay. :) So happy. Zel said this & made me laughed last night. Fucking dumb.

Zel: I went Punggol Park to run today. *lifts up shirt* Did I slim down!?
Me: You know ah, you can't run today & slim down & it shows.
Zel: But did I slim down?
Me: Unfortunately, no. The result where got so fast one la, stupid.

The call we had past few nights, I promised Love quite a few things :
1) Two hours of net-surfing daily, the rest for studying & revising. Anything more than two hours, I'll have to suffer a day long without her. (A no-no)
2) I cannot have negative thoughts, or rather speak negatively. She wants me to have confident in myself.
3) If I'm going out on Saturday, I've to stay home on Sunday to study.
4) Learn to sit properly. (if not she's gonna mao1 me, mao1 you know!)
5) Pass my N monster.

I supposed there is more. No? I won't complain about it, really. Ns is more important than anything else in my life other than Love. Ns, which is my studies come after Love. So yeap, I'm gonna study hard for her, for myself, for a better future, for a better life, for my parents.

I told her I'm giving up my shopping sprees & movie dates with her. You see, I can always rent DVD & it's cheaper. We'll laze around, watch DVDs & study after that. It's better this way, I thought. She agreed with that too, hee. :) Shopping sprees wise.. ): Though I'll miss it a lot but I'm sure there's time to shop la. Studies is more important nowwwww, Glynnnnnnn.

Nice song, Now That She's Gone by JJ Lin. =)

Girl you know I miss you so
I didn't know you had to go
You've had enough of our distance baby
Before I had the chance to say
I'm staying with you
For the rest of my life

Don't keep telling me these words
You don't know how much it hurts
And I'll promise you eternity
If you promise me your stay
But now it's too late
I'm no longer the man that I was

I will go on without her
Like a fool who's too sure
I'm like a bird who's lost her wing
A fire without its flame
I don't know how to be strong
When my love has to move on
I am a song without a soul
Now that she's gone
What's left of us is this song

Don't keep telling me these words
You don't know how much it hurts
And I'll promise you eternity
If you promise me your stay
But now it's too late
I'm no longer the man that I was

I will go on without her
Like a fool who's too sure
I'm like a bird who's lost her wing
A fire without its flame
I don't know how to be strong
When my love has to move on
I am a song without a soul
Now that she's gone
What's left of us is this song

Oh yeah I know I don't know
Baby I am know I'am a foul
And I will go on without her
Like a fool who's too sure
I'm like a bird who's lost her wing
A fire without its flame
I don't know how to be strong
When my love has to move on
I am a song without a soul
Now that she's gone
What's left of us is this song

This is our song without a soul
Now that you're gone
What's left of us in this song


It's so sad but I like. Thanks Sassy, for sending it to me. :)

http://glynis.youarelame.com
Retarded. :)
http://colinandkero.blogspot.com
We should support Gay rights, really. I do support. But this couple is a little scary. :
Someone please save me. I need a better scanner, fuck. >:(




She's loving you still, after all this time.
<3.

9:14 PM
Mend this broken thing./
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